Neil

“Hi, my name’s Neil!” says the guy, loudly, as he turns the corner right in front of me and moves into my way.

I’m walking home from work, it’s just after 5 p.m. and starting to get dark. The temperature is 4°, unseasonably warm for January—a nice night to walk home.

I have to stop because Neil is now blocking my path as I walk west along Adelaide at Church Street. He’s an older guy, maybe 60 or so, with wild, grey hair peeping out from beneath a black toque. His clothes are in disarray, a bit too big for his medium frame, but they look fairly clean. His nose is running. A lot. And he has some sort of speech impediment which makes him slur some words slightly.

“Can I ask you something?” he says.

“Yes, of course,” I reply. He has some kind of cotton bag over one shoulder, holding it there with one hand which is holding a wad of cash, right at eye level! He must have about $80 or $90 in his fist; a combination of fives, tens, and twenties. He holds his other hand out toward me as if to shake. I stare down at it for a second and, keeping mine firmly in my coat pockets, ask “What can I do for you?”

“Well, I want to shake your hand!”

I don’t want to shake his, so I ask “Is there something else you want?”, my hands still in my pockets. I kind of know where this is going.

“I’m not here to hurt you,” he says as he pulls his bag open slightly, allowing me to see inside.

I find this a bit freaky and I won’t look in the bag. He’s standing right up to me, very close, too close for comfort, but I refuse to be cowed as I stay where I am and then say, a little too loudly, “Of course you’re not!”.

“I don’t have anything in my bag to hurt you with.”

I’m still not looking into his bag. “I understand. Now, what can I help you with?”

Neil closes his bag and looks at the money in his other hand. “I have some money here, but I’m just a bit too short to buy myself a pair of gloves. I need some more money to buy gloves. Can you give me some money?”

“I’m sorry, I have no spare change on me. I have no cash at all on me, in fact,” which was true.

But I hadn’t even finished my apology when Neil’s eyes flicked away from mine and started surveying the other passers-by. I didn’t exist anymore as he pulled a pair of thick, warm-looking gloves out of his coat pocket and wiped his nose on them. Then he just turned away without saying another word and walked off down the street, slowly.

I watched him go for a second or two, breathed a sigh, and turned away to continue walking home along Adelaide.